I really feel for you right now. I’ve had my mom for over a year, though for five mos. I got a break and put her in a private home, big mistake. I’ve had her back now for nearly a month. Nights are bad, she wakes up and thinks I have alligators in my house and last night we had killers in the house. Not sure if the bad dreams are part of sundowners or not but she has mass confusion after dinner. Never doubt your decision, it’s best for your dad and family, you may feel guilty that’s normal but trust me if your happy with her care then she’s in ther Right place. Right now we are currently waiting for a new memory care to open, sometime in July. Bi hope I can last that long. Good luck to you.
That is a horrible experience and I know it all too well. Mine may have been less severe than yours, but it was probably the most painful thing I have EVER experienced. Last October, I was in the hospital & I was kinda freaking out a little, so they involuntarily gave me Haldol to relieve some of my anxiety. Mind you, I was 5 months pregnant at this time. I’ve taken it b4 & had issues, but never this severe. If I take benadryl or cogentin w/it, I’m usually fine. It all started w/ a stiff neck & then back. Then my face began to tighten & i had involuntary spasms of the face. My neck was so tight that I experienced the same thing as you… my neck was turned completely sideways & trying to go toward the back of my shoulder as well. They did not want to give me either cogentin or benadryl b/c of the pregnancy. It progreased very quickly & I was crying in agony. They thought I was faking it up until they finally gave me some cogentin thru my IV & I had complete relief in less than 5-10 minutes. However, my muscles in my neck & back were very fatigued after that. I never want to go thru that EVER again & I now list haldol as an allergy on all my medical records.
At the same forum, Christopher Calder , Rajneesh's second Western disciple in the early 1970s, wrote on Oct. 19, 2005 and Aug. 18, 2007, " The Web is full of phony Osho propaganda sites that simply ignore all the scandals and the history of the cult. Most of the tell-all books are out of print and hard to find.... Will the next big cult use germ warfare as the Osho cult did , chemical warfare as the Aum Shinrikyo cult did? Or perhaps the next religious cult will graduate to nuclear warfare? Who knows? If human beings never learn that blind and unquestioning obedience to one 'perfect Master' or leader is dangerous and anti-evolutionary, then we will only have more disasters. [...] I am not saying Rajneesh was a complete fraud in the sense that he had nothing to offer. I just draw a clear line between what was good about him and where he went wrong, so that others in the future will not make the same tragic mistakes. "